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Friday, September 12, 2008

Updates, Dreams, and Disclosures

I finally got a break to come up for air and read posts and post one of my own...This is my last year and it's getting crazy!! We begin rotations in a few weeks and honestly I don't FEEL ready to be a PA-on my own, some one's life, aches, and pains and cures in my hand. The thought of going solo makes me so nervous. I second guess myself and sometimes behave like the kid who sits in the back of the class with her head down so the teacher doesn't notice I haven't raised my hand cuz I didn't do my homework. What's sad is I DID do the homework I just choke myself up and every time someone gives the exact answer I had in my head but didn't say I wanna slap my own damn self lol..i dunno maybe after the 1st two I'll get the swing of it.
OOOOOOHHHHHHHHHH!!! Crazy roommate update! WHY DOES THIS BITCH GO TO MY SCHOOL?!?!? Of all the universities in Philadelphia, this psycho chooses my school?? When we were friends people would always say she wanted to be like me or do the things I did but I didn't think anything of it because I didn't think my life was that great or that I was doin anything that major but seriously, why PCOM?? She's not in the med program, she's not in the PA program, so why couldn't you choose any other Post Bacc program to enroll in you psycho stalker bitch!! The sight of her makes me want to pounce on her dumb ass but I breathe it out, remember that I only have a few months left here and that every other time she's done me wrong something bad happened to her and I didn't have to lift a finger-God took care of her and He will...sigh
::side note:: I know it's terrible but I actually felt some kinda way when I found out she was there because deep down I hate this girl sooo much that I would never want to see her progress. I'm praying to let that anger and hate go because I know I'd be blocking a blessing but I'm human i guess lol
The Mr and I are doing well, bumps in the road as every relationship has but I feel a lil stronger in this so I'm just praying through it. We'll have to separate when I move back to NY but its only temporary so we'll just cross that when we have to.
I've decided that after graduation I'll humble myself and move back home for a while. I have a few offers already with two hospitals so I know I'll have a job and I'll be able to save up and be better prepared to make the moves I want to when I'm ready. I hope my mother and I can make it, i hope it'll be as fast and as smooth as it is in my mind but who knows.
::Question: If your mother {whom you're close to} was in a situation you know is not right for her but she won't change it or get out of it because of a sad and sorry reason, as her child, how vocal can you be?? Is there a time where you forget that it's your mom and let her do something stupid with herself? When does it become rude and out of place??::
I'm still trying to keep up with my work out plans with my trainer and eating a lil better, but lately i have the baking bug and i've made a new discovery: I LOVE CUPCAKES! I might even start posting some of them on here lol. When i retire i'm opening a bakery, if i can wait that long lol. Can you imagine how much i can make off of all my nurse, md, residents and pa friends if i opened a shop near a hospital??? lol we'll see.

alright back to the books...

posted by DSweet1 @ Friday, September 12, 2008

1 Comments:

At 4:38 AM, Tranquility826 said…

lol..lol..she likes you still..lol..lol..man that's gotta be hard, no worries..it'll all come bk to her in the end..

hmmm..on the mom question..I voice my opinion to my mom always, of course being as respectful as possible..but I believe I'm only like that with her because she opened that door and is more vocal about things to me..but trust if I cross the line even a lil' bit, she'll def put me bk in my place..I think our relationship changed a lil more once I moved bk home..we're both two adults and we realize it thru our convos..

ok so that was a long comment..sorry..lol..