| Wednesday, December 13, 2006 |
| Settled In |
Well it set in a lil today...i saw a pic and i was wrapped up in all kind of emotions.
For the first time, there was a BOLD FACE lie
You can't reason yourself out of this one, this time
I feel disrespected for simple fact of who it is
So now, after all this time, I'm actually hurt
Not cry myself to sleep hurt but a hollow, 'I really can't believe this' hurt and I think that's what stings the most ON TOP OF I have some crazy finals, MCATs and GREs next month and money worries and I haven't been to church in so long I might have to re-join the membership..lol..lol!
Anyway, I banged out my first two finals so, so far there's an A and a B, two more tomorrow so I'm hoping everything looks up from here on out...I want some new shoes but I haven't done that much christmas shopping, I know its wrong but I really want them :-(...off to Theories and BioChem.
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posted by DSweet1 @ Wednesday, December 13, 2006  |
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| Sunday, December 10, 2006 |
| Guess I Needed a Slap |
"God, just let something drastic happen so I can know that I need to leave this alone."
"If they can just do ONE major thing to make me hate them, I could be fine."
"Lord, show me a blatant sign."
These were all my thoughts and prayers concerning certain situations and damn did I get slapped with every kinda response this weekend. God and I have a relationship where He'll tell me something and I'll kinda get it but not quite so He gets frustrated with me and then slaps the crap outta me and I definitely still feel it.
Shocked
Confused
Pissed
Disappointed
Vengeful
Embarassed {only because my mother was sitting right in front of me}
all my emotions at the time of all this revelation but surprisingly, NOT hurt. There were no tears, no depression, none of that just upset. I'm grateful that I didn't have one of those wailing moments but I can't understand why I don't have a deeper emotion. And yet in still I have the same feeling I had 2 years ago-'It still ain't gonna work', I was right back then, so that helps a lil too... |
| posted by DSweet1 @ Sunday, December 10, 2006 |
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