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Wednesday, March 14, 2007

Who Do I Answer To???

I'm so excited for June 16th to get here and for me to be done with this undergraduate chapter in my life FOREVER! But now that I'm closing that chapter of course a new one must begin...so i got accepted into the PA program at Emory University which is my number one choice and I'm excited about moving and starting over, new school, new course load, new environment, just a new breath, the very thought of all of this makes me so happy but...
#1-this is an entirely new city and honestly i really wish i could take all that I love from here and move them down there {call me dreamy but anyway}
#2-my new relationship has matured so fast and so strong that now we're discussing him moving down there with me!! Now when his house was having some issues, i let him stay at my apartment for a lil while until he got everything fixed and during that time it felt nice to come home to someone every night and wake up in his arms on a regular and honestly, he didn't get on my nerves {and trust in close quarters it is very easy for someone to get on my last nerve pretty quickly!!!:-(}. Everyone around us thinks he's the one and I'm the one and honestly i share their sentiments exactly but a few things complicate this decision:
a-Is this a morally sound, Christian move to make? We've discussed marriage seriously and often and in my bones i feel like something may happen but just because we've discussed and thought about this institution, is it right for Christians to 'play house' before they actually make it to the alter?
b-WHO'S GONNA TELL MY MOMMA?!! lol it's not funny, seriously, how do you explain a situation like this to an old-fashion, jamaican woman? She really did want me to come home but i already knew that wasn't gonna be good but could i really have to balls to tell her i'm movin in with a guy??? His explanation to his mother {who isn't thrilled about her baby movin at all} was that he wanted to expand his business and work while i was in school so that I wouldn't have to stress over bills and such and she was ok with it after they spoke but i don't think it'll be that easy back in Brooklyn.
c-What would people think? Not that I've been the kind to really care too much, there are certain individuals whose opinions i really value, would they think I was loose or out of order with that kind of move?
d-What if we get on eachother's nerves later on? I mean it's always possible but i think about it sometimes, we're so compatible yet we're total opposites...i feel like I've known him for forever but the truth is i haven't, it hasn't even been a long time :-( we have great communication but anything's possible...

i dunno i'm confused right now and i'm trying to remain logical and allow my heart to be free in itself at the same time...not sure if that's even possible...say a prayer and lemme know what yall think lol

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Dr. C.H. MD{prayerfully}

posted by DSweet1 @ Wednesday, March 14, 2007

2 Comments:

At 9:13 PM, Tranquility826 said…

Congratulations!! Great job!! YOu'll be wit your BFF. I'm sooo jealous that you'll be moving to ATL..my momma won't let me right away and neither will my pockets..but that Children's hospital down there is callin my name..lol..
At 2:37 PM, poyesha said…

congratulations, i am really happy for you. you definitely deserve it. as far as the bf, do whats best for you and no one else. if this is what you heart wants then definitely go for it. i am all for taking risks because you wont experience life if you dont. i think it is a beautiful thing to grow with someone that you click so well with. and there will be times that he will get on your nerves, thats human, and its actually unhealthy if he never gets on ur nerves somewhere down the line. but i hope whatever decision you make, that ure happy.. take care girl