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Thursday, February 28, 2008

A Few Ripples

I really have no desire to write on this thing but SOOOO much has happened and I know I need to get it out somehow but I just don't feel moved to formulate the thoughts to put them to words and then type them on here lol {see i really am screwed up lol..lol..} So I'll just give a few updates on this crazy whirlwind of my life...
*I got a puppy for Christmas!! He is the best, he's an American Pitt Terrier named Boadie {yea like in Boadie on The Wire lol} He's already one of my best friends and they're sooo right dogs are just like having children {i feel my maternal instincts kicking in everyday, you know there's a problem when ur pup has insurance before you lol}
**I moved!! I love my new space and the feeling that it's all mine and anything that happens can only fall on my own shoulder so we'll really see if it's my bad luck or a terrible choice of roommate that brought all the drama of landlords past. Still settling in, I never realized how much STUFF i had and my sister-in-law is hell bent on us doing a feng shui revitalization in the space {i'll let u know how that goes...u know them crazy leos come up with some things lol}
***So I've started grad school! ::Deep Sigh:: I thought Drexel's program was killer, they ain't got nothing on PCOM! So this term I'm in Pathology {with the smartest and craziest woman I've ever met}, Anatomy a& Phys., Clinical Med, and Pharm {OMG!! He really thinks we're all 3rd year med students already...pump ya breaks Gumph lol}. I am praying my way through this next phase. Kinda feel grown up but not totally yet.
****The Mr. has enlisted in the FREAKIN ARMY!! This hurt, pissed me off, confused me, debilitated me, left me speechless. The idea of him being drafted honestly has me thinking some twisted things lol {i won't say what, Big Brother's always watching and reading}. SOO he's currently in Basic Training in GA and I'm in soo much pain you would think I was there with him. I knew it would be hard, but OMG I never thought it would be this bad. I just stopped crying and he left about 3 weeks ago...but he also has 14 weeks left! He graduates in April but was promoted for AIT so he won't be coming home in April, no he'll be in VA until FREAKIN June! Some days are better than others but there are days I feel so numb ::sigh:: this heart thing is BANANAS. Some days {and today was def 1 of those days} where I feel like just ending the whole thing but idk...i know who is and who he will be and I won't be responsible for messing that up.
*****I'm either losing or losing touch of my friends. Within the past 3 months I've lost 4 friends to either some kinda stupid Brooklyn gang mess or an illness {R.I.P. Sammy, Devon, Keon, and Chandra I love you guys always} and the others are just too full of drama for me to even entertain. SO WHAT DOES A GIRL DO FOR HER BIRTHDAY?!?! With her dude in Basic Training and friends few and far in between...well some OLD friends of mine {we're talking about missing teeth and scraped up knees} are taking a lil vaca to Santa Barbara the weekend after my bday and I'll probably just go to class and do something for myself. Rather be sweet to myself by myself then caught up in some other crazy stuff.
I've made a decision to make '08 MY YEAR to just accomplish a few goals I've laid out for myself and watch my growth-intimately and career-wise. I've decided to just BE HAPPY...no matter what gets thrown at me, if '07 couldn't kill me then I'll just push passed it and keep it moving. 24 is my favortie number so y not make it banging?? I was reminded this weekend-BROOKLYN CHICKS DO THE DAMN THING!! lol {hey Char} so that's what I'm gonna do. The year's still young, but I'm still hopeful and positive.
Hey that was a lot for a lady who DIDN'T feel like writing, right??? lol...lol...you brought it outta me. Gotta go...Pathology exam in the a.m.

Dr. C.H., MD {prayerfully}

posted by DSweet1 @ Thursday, February 28, 2008 1 comments

Wednesday, February 13, 2008

I've Been Missing Alot

Ok, so I've been out of the loop and it seems that, I've resurfaced and found everyone ENGAGED or pregnant. It started with my god-sister announcing her engagement after 4 months {she's known to do drastic things like this, we'll see where this goes} but co-workers and classmates are getting engaged and ready to do the damn thing, I feel kinda late.
Silly as it may sound, I'm in a steady relationship right now and even though the discussion comes up and we might refer to eachother as "the wife" and "the Mr." I don't see a proposal coming anytime soon, but now that it seems to have become a fad it makes me wonder...is the time coming up???
Now when I first entertained the thought it was fun, you know to be someone's wife but then I really thought about it and it scared the trash out of me, being someone's WIFE! WOW, while I congratulate my cohorts and will be all too excited to attend the ceremonies I think I'll wait this one out lol and just continue to dream of it.
But then what's wrong with me, if I'm in the relationship entertaining the thought yet shrinking away from the idea of taking it to that ideal and holy level am I just playing house?? or am i really not ready to be someone's wife?? if i'm not, should I be in such a serious relationship. Ok, see it's late and this is getting deep I'll try to resurface soon.

Dr. C.H., MD {prayerfully}

posted by DSweet1 @ Wednesday, February 13, 2008 0 comments

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