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Saturday, October 24, 2009
Let It Go?
So I'm just gonna vent for a lil bit since I'm tired of talkin this thing out...When it came to education and making sure we were in some good programs she was a great mom! When it came to emotionally encouraging and building self-esteem in her kids, she was and still is THE WORST!! I know you're supposed to talk about your mom and manners and all that but seriously I believe the only reason I didn't turn out weak was because I couldn't let her beat me, so I developed a tough shell and its sad that to this day I still have to use it. :-(
Typical moms don't know their place when it comes to their grown kids but she is TOTALLY out of place!
When I found out I was pregnant, YES it was a shock but the extreme that she took it to I could not believe and still I can't shake the look she gave, the crap that flew out of her mouth....uggghhh. Well now that he's here, she wants to play Super-Grandma!! I can't believe it. I thought when it was all over I would feel a little different but seriously I don't even really like to see her hold him, sad I know but its my true feeling. When she tries to tell me what to do and how to take care of him I wanna say "What do you care? You didn't even want him here!!" but I don't. I'm nursing and I'm gonna try to stick with it until he's at least 6 months, but how can someone that NEVER breastfed her kids seriously tell me what to do?? Then today she had the audacity to tell me that I need to just bring him to her in Brooklyn! Are you F'IN kiddin me LADY!!!
I'm still debating whether or not I'd tell him the truth about the way his grandmother acted or not. We'll see. She boils my blood something terrible. Thanks for letting me vent this, hope to be back on a brighter note.
posted by DSweet1 @ Saturday, October 24, 2009   2 comments
Saturday, October 10, 2009
My Little Man!
JOHN ELIJAH JONES!

I love this little boy more than life itself I couldn't imagine loving someone so fast and so much! I worked hard because I dreamt that one day he'd be here, now that he's here the dreams just get bigger and the ambition just gets crazier, I love you MY PRIDE and JOY!Of course Mr Man thinks he can crawl at 3 weeks!


Finally got cutie to smile on camera (well a wink)!



The serious face which is the usual face, lil man plays no games!

posted by DSweet1 @ Saturday, October 10, 2009   2 comments
It'll NEVER Be The Same


Alright so the last time I updated I wrote about how miserable I was that the baby was taking his sweet time making his exit, well, here goes...

I was hot, hormonal, and uncomfortable so I decided to take some Castor oil (DISGUSTING!!!) and see if that would encourage lil man to make a move. I waited alllllll day and NOTHING! So finally we ate dinner, watched a movie, and went to sleep. I wake up for my usual bathroom run at 12:03am and as soon as I hit the door-MY WATER BROKE!!! OMG! I've never felt anything like this! I felt like I was seriously peeing on myself but I couldn't stop it and it was a big gush like I was expecting it was a trickle down my leg. I woke John up and he told me I just wet myself lol. When I finally made it to the bathroom I was sure it was my water so we started to get things together.

I did my hair, he finally packed the overnite bag, I packed my SIMS and Jay-Z and we were off to the hospital lol. Oh yea we stopped at WAWA too (gotta have the Fruit Punch and Peach Iced Tea). SOOO around 2:30a we finally make it to HUP (worst mistake but anyway)...we get checked in, laugh w the nite nurses, joked in the room (since I work for the system we got the biggest room on the floor and the good cable lol}, watched Nick at Nite and then finally fell asleep, then-DAY SHIFT came in... :-(

I still felt nothing, a lil cramp here and there but the monitors made it seem alot worst then it actually was. The Dr comes in to do a check and just like everyone else she said he was still pretty high and she didn't expect him to come anytime soon but since my water broke I should wrap my mind around Pitocin which I was totally against (OH FYI: I'm doing this thing all natural, no drugs, no one in my back, and def no Pit). In my gut I knew she was wrong but she was harsh as hell so I ignored her and told her I'd just walk him down, "gimme 20 mins" lol they thought I was buggin. The Mr was doing a GREAT job at keeping my calm and Jay in the background put me in FULL BROOKLYN!

The stupid nurse whom I almost threw in the toilet kept trying to keep me on the stupid monitors like she never heard of a woman in labor walking around. Finally I snapped and told the Mr to tell her to get out of my face and that I'd let her know if the baby wasn't doing well (Drs make the WORST patients lol). Anyway, I kept feeling like I need to go to the bathroom SOOOO badly that my back was starting to hurt and I couldn't lay down or sit even if I wanted to. The only thing that felt good was sitting on the toilet or laying on the MR (I know tmi but hey...). This is now about 12:30p and the dummy doc and nurse are still trying to tell me I have a long way to go. Finally I tell the Mr to call them back in and get ready, I said "I need to push", do yall know these FOOLS had the NERVE to tell me "No you don't"??? Yo, rule #1, if the woman in labor is telling you she's gonna push, guess what?!?!? So they didn't want to listen to me, they kept talking to each other, I told the Mr to get down and look for it because I was pushing. I went fully into myself and just beared down.

Now the first push burned! so I stopped re-grouped and pushed again and I heard the Mr say "There's the head!". That got they dumb asses moving lol. Anyway two more pushes and finally my little miracle came screaming and wailing :-)
Why was everyone thinking he was so high up, well ol' boy came out at 22 inches long!!! so he seemed pretty far up but he's just tall lol
Anyway, the dummy doc tried to stitch me up, no anesthetic or NOTHING I almost kicked her and then they broke my heart and told me I needed to go to the OR because I had a third degree tear from him "flying out so fast" and I would have to get an epidural. I cried so hard because I was so nervous about these dummies playin in my back, I called in a favor and the BEST anesthesiologist came in and the head of the OR stopped by too and THANK GOD everything was fine and my little boy was perfect!

John ELIJAH Jones
August 19, 2009
1:26pm
6lbs 14oz
22in.
posted by DSweet1 @ Saturday, October 10, 2009   1 comments
Thursday, October 08, 2009
Be Back Soon...
Damn computer got a friggin Trojan horse virus, Hubby tried to fix it but it needs more work and there's too much to update for these lil blackberry keys lol...when I get my old comp up tomorrow I'll post pics of the lil man.
He's so great and I love watching him get older everyday!!!
posted by DSweet1 @ Thursday, October 08, 2009   0 comments
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