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Thursday, July 07, 2005

Confessions

Because it was cloggin my brain I had to get it out...

Confession #1- I messed up. I didn't wait the way I knew I was supposed to wait and I may have messed up something for myself that I've been praying for, crying for, but couldn't wait for....

Confession #2- Although there was no friendship there before the drama, I played a major part in making sure a friendship could never grow and now I can't help wondering "What if???" but then I tend to ask if it's even that important, they probably don't care one way or another. Yet it still bothers me because I care about them somewhat {why??? I don't know}...

Confession #3- I pulled ranks tryin to prove that someone was not so important or special as another claimed them to be, and although I got the answer I was looking for I feel bad about what I did and still much hasn't changed {mainly cuz I don't know how to change anything}. And now more questions clog my mind about this topic.

Damn sometimes the brain and the heart just don't get along but it's worst when the spirit is against them both, who wins???

One minute I'm cool with everything and am dead sure I've totally thought everything through but then I stop and question every move I've made and I still can't get myself to regret anything but my conscience makes me look at myself and my motives a lil funny...I can give good advice, and some people tell me I give the best they've ever gotten, yet I can't talk to myself sometimes...

Dr. C.H., MD {prayerfully}

posted by DSweet1 @ Thursday, July 07, 2005

2 Comments:

At 11:21 AM, Anonymous said…

It shows that you have a heart but also that you are human...but I have a question, as a Christian of course, if you trust someone and all of a sudden they turn their back on you how do you deal with that without cussin them out and wishing them bad???
At 11:23 AM, DSweet1 said…

Girl why don't you get a blog too??? You always on this thing...lol..I think I got an answer just gimme a minute to write it out...