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Monday, June 27, 2005

Obedience

Anyone that knows anything about me knows that I am a child of God and that although I make so seriously dumb mistakes I'm just trying to get favor. In growing in this Christian walk I'm learning so much about the Lord, myself, those I encounter, and this walk of mine. I feel like I'm being pulled in one direction that I don't really wanna get into. All my life I've wanted to be a doctor, since my early teens I knew I wanted to do surgery, when my grandparents passed I knew I wanted to do gastrointestinal Oncology and that's what I'm fightin for but when I was 13 I "preached" my first sermon and ever since then there's been a burning for it. Since I've been out here at Drexel I've been asked to speak at a few churches and most of the time I say "No thank you" because I got work to do but how do I know that ain't the work I should be doin??? When I pray and turn to the Word I get convicted something serious!!!God definitely comes at my throat all reckless...lol... But then when I review my life I can't see myself being NOBODY's pastor {1st I've messed up too much, 2nd I just don't think I can do it like the greats}
I adore my Bishop and she really is the woman I try to emulate in life because everything she does is greatness and blessed {and she's soooo pretty} and lately so many people are comparing me to her, some joking and some seriously, and everytime I turn away from it {#1I don't really want it, #2 I AIN'T NO WHERE CLOSE TO BISHOP!!!}
I've been told several times that we can choose a life and tell God to bless it and He cause us to fall flat on our faces in embarrassment because we were disobedient. I just keep praying that He makes my way clear, that He allows me to do whatever it is He wants...Sometimes I ask these things and then tell Him "Nah God you probably made a lil mistake with that decision" and give Him my own and He's knocked me on my behind something terrible before, so why is it so hard to be obedient???
Lord tell me to go and I'll move, just give me the strength, the wisdom, and the grace to endure when I do...
Dr. CH, MD. {prayerfully}

posted by DSweet1 @ Monday, June 27, 2005

1 Comments:

At 8:39 PM, Anonymous said…

Now why you runnin??? Didn't that guy tell you you were gonna preach waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay back in 9th grade??? I was there for that so don't lie...lol