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Tuesday, October 25, 2005

In A Good Space

I'm in a very weird mood lately...Weird because I'm happy and in a really good place emotionally, and not really affected by things that might've bothered me before because although hell is tryin to raise up in my life, attacks are coming on every side, and I'm having to go through all this physically alone, I don't have the feeling to complain. From time to time I worry a lil bit and strangely after all that I'm ok...could be a sign that I'm maturing and learning that you can't change everything/everyone around you or it just could be the Lord's calming, either way I thank Him.

UMMM, so much is goin on right now with work and me changing positions, people in my old position hating, friends I thought I'd made showin their true colors, and on top of all that learning how to plate cell samples, read gram stain charts, and so much more.

Then my family...everybody, if you don't say a prayer for me and my well-being just pray for my fam, that's all I'ma say bout all that.

Academia, Drexel's tryin to play me with financial aid, but I'm faithful in my tithe so I know I have NOTHING to worry about...My future looks like I'll have a few options if MedSchool falls through {there are 57,000 applicants for 16,000 seats for Med Schools each year :-(} so I just pray for guidance in this area.

The Heart Dept., another one of those 'it's out of my hands' situations, I love the friendship we have right now and if something blossoms out of it then that's cool but I'm confortable where things are right now. Talkin it over with Rhonda the other day confirmed the way I was feeling, it's best if we're best friends anyway...

My friends are all progressing well and I get really excited to see the girls I grew up with playing in the street become women with careers and bright futures, I LOVE YOU ALL!! I'm glad I've made other friends either on the same path or going in a similar direction and I pray for their strengths, I'm grateful for those I can call or IM and just laugh at the craziness that goes on in life/Drexel/in general...

I'm grateful for this time and space and just pray that it just continues...
CH

posted by DSweet1 @ Tuesday, October 25, 2005 1 comments

Monday, October 17, 2005

Smiles and Tears

I know yall are lookin at the title and thinkin I might've gone Bi-Polar but today was a big ball of emotions.
Firstly, this morning I was lil nervous and jittery because I was getting ready for my first Bible Study class at a church I had attended once about a year ago. I taught on Jeremiah 1 and called it "When your No doesn't change God's Yes". I was nervous because I didn't know the people and the church is pretty big and also this topic was definitely something that the Lord is working out in me. But I felt ok because I knew He would show up and take over and also I had a good talk with my DIVA friend last nite that had me in a good mood. I finally get to the church and of course there were more people then I was praying for but them Baptists got all excited off the title. And He definitely took over and I think this message hit some spots in people and that's all I was looking for...
Then, I get to work and my high is knocked straight to the ground. Two months ago, a doctor I grew close to was diagnosed with colon and pancreatic cancer. He was admitted here and it's been hard seeing him break down but I still make sure I sit in with him every night until he falls asleep. Well today I walked in and a nurse and my manager tell me to go see him ASAP. So I get down there and he's so pale and weakly and I was a lil crushed. He told me I had to continue doing what I'm doing and make sure I get into extensive oncology research and that he knew I could do it. Around 8:30, the floor called and told me that he wasn't holding on too well, by the time I got down there at 8:50 he was gone...
My first instinct was to straighten his shirt {because he was always neat like that} and pull the sheet over his face, I felt totally out of body. As I walked down the hall and everyone looking at me for a reaction, I kept my composure and told them to call his daughter first {his wife would've flipped out} and went straight to the back stairs and cried for about 15-20mins. Just to know him was a blessing, he's encouraged me so much, and now my determination to fight cancers has grown ten times stronger.

This post is dedicated to the memory of Dr. Mitchell Abelson, M.D. Oncology. R.I.P. Doc

CH

posted by DSweet1 @ Monday, October 17, 2005 1 comments

Thursday, October 13, 2005

Church Folk

I actually just woke up and this thought was bothering me so bad I had to get it out to someone and since no one is up at 4:40am, my blog will do...
I've spent so much time defending church folk it's sickening!! There are so many people that refuse to come to my church because of the people that go there, recently I brought a friend of mine and she was shocked to see one of her regulars at the casino in a leadership position in the church so I had to spend the rest of the day, not reaffirming what Bishop preached on but on how she got to where she is. It is the hardest thing to explain to a non-believer about the process Christians go through. And it hurts because I feel that they could learn so much from Bishop but I pray God will speak to them even if they haven't settled in a church yet.
But recently I heard one of the main church blockers say "If you ain't on God's agenda then you're not on my agenda" and "I really can't deal with you if you ain't up to me"... Who are you to say who is and who isn't on God's agenda? We're all His children, even the ones that don't accept Him, so what are you saying? WHAT KINDA MESS IS THAT?!?!?! Now let someone who's new in the faith read that crap and you've just lost another soul. I understand that those that refuse to hear God should eventually be turned over to a reprobate mind but when you claim to be called and you are a minister in God's house HOW DEAR YOU EVEN BEGIN TO BELIEVE THAT YOU ARE IN ANY POSITION TO DISMISS ANYONE BECAUSE THEY MIGHT BE A LITTLE FLAWED??!!!??! If truth be told and the light is shone on the mess you comin out of, working through, and everything you're thinkin at this very moment God would spit you out of His mouth if He was like man. You are in a position of power, people look up to you, and you're still a baby-and the sad part is you don't even know it. I am not sayin that I'm fully grown in the Lord...no I've got a long road ahead of me...but I have the "spiritual common sense" to know that people are watching me, that there is a young girl who thinks I've got everything in check and is tryin to emulate me, to know that I have to watch my mouth and my actions.
By every mean, do not allow anyone to hinder or hold you back from gettin close to the Father because that would be the worst mistake you would make but please do not become scripture educated, tongue speakin MEAN PEOPLE!!

For those of you that may read this and are struggling with your faith and feel in anyway discouraged by other Christians please understand one thing, when you confess Jesus Christ as Lord and Savior you are saved for the rest of your life and no one can take that from you and if they don't treat you the way you feel you should be treated then you take that as a key note as how to NOT treat others {what you do/say to children of God will always come back to you}. If you have one friend that is willing to hold you a seat in church whether you come or not, if you got that one friend that will pray you through your rough spot even when the ones you expect to keep you in prayer seem not to remember that but rather talk about what and who you're doin, if you remember that when you get in your secret place and your knees touch that floor and you open your mouth to say Father and you believe that what you ask is already done because your Father is that BIG-THAT'S ALL YOU GOTTA WORRY ABOUT! and if they won't do right, you do right and watch Him work it all out for your good.

CH

posted by DSweet1 @ Thursday, October 13, 2005 1 comments

Wednesday, October 12, 2005

I haven't been here in so long I'm surprised I remembered my password..lol..
Life has been constant and I've been workin like a slave so really quickly I'll fill ya in.

Ummmm, first I'm tryin to start a few things here at Drexel but the powers that be are really tryin to fight me on it. Some of the administrative heads brought to my attention that Drexel has one of the worst minority retention rates in the East so I came up with a few ideas and because I didn't belong to any set org., they acted like it couldn't be done under the Office of Multicultural Affairs, but I don't like being told NO so I couldn't just sit wit that..lol..hopefully soon enough we'll see some things happening. I teamed up with my boy Concepts and his org. DMAP because I feel like they're the only org. here that actually tries to do what it's purpose states and I already teamed up with a few people to start a retention org. I'm just hopin that we can really move forward...

Work...MY GOD!!! Well I bless God for everything He's provided for me, a supportive boss, loving co-workers {some of them}, a paycheck, etc. but I really gotta say THANK YOU for the promotion I just got. I started out as a lab technician but based on what I did over the past year and my chemistry background my boss decided that I was qualified to become a SENIOR LAB TECHNICIAN in the Pathology Department!!! I am the youngest one in the department doin some really interesting work with biopsies, amputations, and cell culturing. I'm a lab rat so I love this kinda stuff, trainin is no joke but the check will be pretty next week lol. Thank You Lord for being faithful, even when I'm not.

Spiritually, I didn't preach at that church in Camden, one of the ministers is from Senegal and her parents were here for a little while and she wanted them to hear her preach so I stepped back, and I hear she did really well. But since I didn't preach I became the armor bearer for one of the ministers at my church who was also scheduled to preach for a church's Women's Day. I haven't been to a church like that in so long, it was a traditional Baptist Church with a coffee hour and crazy church mothers..lol..i loved it. But I just feel like I'm hearing the Lord more and more and I'm just tryin to do this thing the right way..say a prayer for ya girl.

I'm not the best person in organizing finances and things like that, I'll have the plan in mind, but I just won't see it through so I definitely need someone to give me so tactics that work for them, Drexel's already gonna mess up my credit I don't need to help them out.

Relationship-wise, I'm chillin. I kinda like the single life cuz then I ain't gotta check in with anyone but sometimes when the mind starts working you can't help but think...I still haven't figured out that relationship yet, I've gotten some answers but still not sure. I guess a full discussion should happen sometime soon but I really dont' have free time and with the big moves they're makin, they don't either...Either God will move them out completely or we'll understand this thang soon enough

That's All...
CH

posted by DSweet1 @ Wednesday, October 12, 2005 1 comments

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