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Saturday, December 31, 2005

Make It Stick in '06

Every year we come up with a slogan to keep us through the up-coming year and this is my lil one. The Lord has made me a few promises since the beginning of '05 and while I haven't been the perfect Christian, He's remained faithful and has kept me this far so I know I still have time to put in more work and in 2006 I will prayerfully walk closer and do I what I need to do to make these promises come to life.
'05 has been a very interesting year for me and while it wasn't the worst, it also wasn't the happiest and I'm glad that it's over and a new one can begin on a good note. I'll be in church tonight and the Daniel fast begins at midnight. This is the best way to bring in this year of makin moves: focused on the only thing that will get me through this year.
I told God I was tired of being unhappy, nervous, worried, confused, and that I had no more tears left to cry, so I'm trusting for a different kinda year. While I had to say goodbye to a few, I'm greatful for those that I welcomed into my life, those that remain, and those that returned and I pray that you all have a blessed and prosperous New Year. Let this be the year of big moves and may all the promises over you life and futures STICK in '06...

DR. C.H., MD {prayerfully}

posted by DSweet1 @ Saturday, December 31, 2005 1 comments

Thursday, December 29, 2005

JC's Weekend

Merry Christmas!!!
Christmas was actually really nice, I didn't get alot of gifts but I bless God that I was able to give alot. Shout out to my brother and my sister-in-law for the greatest gift {payin the next 3 payments of my tuition payment plan!!!} I love you to no extent. I got to hang out with my oldest brother, which I haven't been able to do in a while. My niece and nephew have to be the cutest children I've ever seen, "AC loves yall!" lol
I got to spend a lil time with my best friend, which has also been a while but I wasn't able to link up with some other friends that I've missed like crazy, but we'll make that happen real soon. Of course I spent a good amount of time with Mr Man and that's always interesting. How someone who grates on your last nerve can make you smile so much, I'll never understand it, but anyway...
I had to cut the vacation short and return to my slave shift at the hospital. Right now there are 3 women out on pregnancy leave {everybody in that damn hospital is pregnant}, 1 lady is having gastric bypass, and another is still on his honeymoon and all this means that those that remain have to fill in the holes. Tasha and I had to come back early to play fill in, while the check will be real proper my body is draggin and my place is not lookin like 'Candace lives here' right now..lol
Since Tasha was originally trained as a unit secretary and is now a PCT she's runnin her entire floor, SHOUT OUT TO DR. MOORE love you! and since I was originally trained as a processor and lab tech and I'm now in pathology guess who's runnin outpatient, chemistry lab, and reading gram stains!? but it's all preparation.
E.Diva asked me why I stopped signing off as Dr. CH and when I spoke with Daddy this weekend I realized that one bad term and Drexel's foolishness can't stop what's meant to happen, so in honor of this realization and in appreciation of E.Diva's motivation, I'm signing off...

Dr. CH, MD {prayerfully}

posted by DSweet1 @ Thursday, December 29, 2005 2 comments

Friday, December 16, 2005

Seek and You Shall Find...

This might sound like a petty, female ranting-but DAMN I WISH SHE WERE EVEN PRETTY!!!

I know yall don't know what I'm talkin about but they say when you go lookin you might find something you don't wanna see/know, well I went lookin and of course I didn't like what I saw but then on top of that, and the bad attempts of covering it up, she wasn't even pretty!!!

Sorry I had to vent and Tasha's at work, I'm gonna go, thanks for listening to me scream...lol

CH

posted by DSweet1 @ Friday, December 16, 2005 2 comments

Thursday, December 15, 2005

Season of Goodbyes

Have you ever felt a hurt so deep you had no tears to cry, no words to really express how hurt you really were, so deep you felt so worn inside, like your soul was shedding the tears your eyes wouldn't???This is one of those seasons.
I've had to walk away from some friendships just because I didn't heed the warning signs years ago. Now, the same behaviors come up AGAIN, but this time I refuse to go back through the rebuilding process just to have it crumble again. Maybe when they've matured and truly act their age then we could maybe try it again, who knows? I ain't holdin my breath.
A relationship that has been neither here nor there has been weighing me down for a while now, a lil too long. A young lady asked, "do you know what it feels like to have someone touch your soul?", I thought about that statement for a minute and realized there haven't been that many, but this one person...I've never had a person enlighten, encourage, and warm my soul with such intensity and turn around and bruise and batter it with almost the same intensity. I know I need to just walk away but it's the idea that this time might be forever is what scares me some, but the signs and the wack excuses used to cover it up pisses me off to a higher degree.
After talking to a few influential people in my life, a dream of mine has been put off for what looks like a few years. I can't explain what kind of pain this brings me, the very thought of it brings mounds of tears so I won't type on it too long. While this is not a good-bye factor, it's a 'a lil later' matter and that alone hurts...
Some of these matters, I've gotten warning signs about before about but just couldn't let it be. Now I must go through this detaching season but I know that when some things move out, more moves in and I pray that only good comes after all these good-byes.

CH

posted by DSweet1 @ Thursday, December 15, 2005 2 comments

Sunday, December 04, 2005

Thanks

Special thanks to all those that remained faithful to me! Sometimes all I focus on are the people who have, in any way, crossed me or backstabbed me but i realize that certain things have to get thrown out in order for other things to find their comfort zones.

Special Shout Outs: To the Best Friends a girl could ever ask for, Janet, Tasha, and Jailah. I'll love you guys to no end.
To my prayer partner, we're here for a reason, to be there for eachother, and to make sure we never slip. Thanks
Thank you to everyone that thought it not robbery to put me on their prayer lists and for keeping my spirits up either by your comments here, or anywhere else.
Thank you to the gentleman that loves in his own special way, one day you'll man up and truely show yourself ;-)

You're all special to me and there's a lil space carved in my heart for each and every one of you. MUAH! :-)

posted by DSweet1 @ Sunday, December 04, 2005 0 comments

Out of Sight, Out of Mind...

Well this weekend wasn't as dramatic as I thought it would be. I had a great "lazy saturday" and had some soul food {which is always a plus in my book...lol}. But today I let my mind run around a lil bit, What if the object of some of your deepest thoughts doesn't think on you as strongly? Yea, they're busy but so are you! Maybe then it's something wrong with your thought process? I dunno maybe I'll figure that out but it's always hard when you get the 'Out of Sight, Out of Mind' feeling.
I could be over analyzing but i know i've been guilty of treating people like that {most of the time I don't mean it} so I kinda know what its like. People are different but of course this ridiculous mind of mine, won't let me rest...This seems just out of place but I felt like gettin it out some way, thanks...

posted by DSweet1 @ Sunday, December 04, 2005 0 comments

Friday, December 02, 2005

Ball of Confusion

What if the thing you worked so hard to let go of/forget about/detach yourself from suddenly pops up out of no where??? Is it a test, a revelation, an evil trick???
Why would i have to go through all of this again???
Something says leave it be and just do me but then something else tells me that my feelings are gonna end up in the mix and i might not be too pleased in the end. I dunno what da hell will come of all this, but i guess we shall see

Please say a prayer! Lord, it's me again...

posted by DSweet1 @ Friday, December 02, 2005 1 comments

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