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Thursday, August 11, 2005

What and Why?!?!?!?

WOW its been crazy for the past week and a half! But lemme start from the top cuz it all elevates to higher levels of CRAZY!

1st I am in a relationship with a good man that absolutely loves me, rarely can you find something like this, and yet...I still find myself dippin back to a past relationship. Although we both try to put it out there that there is nothing between us, we both still run back to eachother whenever things get crazy. We had a nice long talk not too long ago where I think, although we do confide so things in eachother, we were the most open and honest with eachother and I decided to focus on my relationship because it just wasn't fair to him. I made up in my mind that I would totally let it go and let him do him and me do me, then...I heard that the chick he talkin to surprised him at home, I FLIPPED!!! You don't just show up in the city like that, NO! So I called him and of course I got "It ain't nuthin, you know that" from him but I wasn't even close to tryin to hear that so I BLACKED and hung up the phone on him. Over here in Philly I was definately on some "I'm through with this! F**K him!" for about 3 days and then...He shows up at my building to deal with it and now I'm back at square one again, not knowin which way to move. It ain't fair to ol' boy, and it ain't fair to her either. Why did I flip out like that? Why did "it not mean anything" to him? Why do I care if she goes to the city? Why did he care that I flipped out like that? Why was I so tight about it? Why was it so deep he drove out here to settle it before I left? Why do I look to him? Why does my mother adore him and he love my mother?

What and Why have been to recurring theme...

posted by DSweet1 @ Thursday, August 11, 2005

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