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Monday, October 17, 2005

Smiles and Tears

I know yall are lookin at the title and thinkin I might've gone Bi-Polar but today was a big ball of emotions.
Firstly, this morning I was lil nervous and jittery because I was getting ready for my first Bible Study class at a church I had attended once about a year ago. I taught on Jeremiah 1 and called it "When your No doesn't change God's Yes". I was nervous because I didn't know the people and the church is pretty big and also this topic was definitely something that the Lord is working out in me. But I felt ok because I knew He would show up and take over and also I had a good talk with my DIVA friend last nite that had me in a good mood. I finally get to the church and of course there were more people then I was praying for but them Baptists got all excited off the title. And He definitely took over and I think this message hit some spots in people and that's all I was looking for...
Then, I get to work and my high is knocked straight to the ground. Two months ago, a doctor I grew close to was diagnosed with colon and pancreatic cancer. He was admitted here and it's been hard seeing him break down but I still make sure I sit in with him every night until he falls asleep. Well today I walked in and a nurse and my manager tell me to go see him ASAP. So I get down there and he's so pale and weakly and I was a lil crushed. He told me I had to continue doing what I'm doing and make sure I get into extensive oncology research and that he knew I could do it. Around 8:30, the floor called and told me that he wasn't holding on too well, by the time I got down there at 8:50 he was gone...
My first instinct was to straighten his shirt {because he was always neat like that} and pull the sheet over his face, I felt totally out of body. As I walked down the hall and everyone looking at me for a reaction, I kept my composure and told them to call his daughter first {his wife would've flipped out} and went straight to the back stairs and cried for about 15-20mins. Just to know him was a blessing, he's encouraged me so much, and now my determination to fight cancers has grown ten times stronger.

This post is dedicated to the memory of Dr. Mitchell Abelson, M.D. Oncology. R.I.P. Doc

CH

posted by DSweet1 @ Monday, October 17, 2005

1 Comments:

At 3:25 PM, Tranquility826 said…

I'm glad to hear that your bible study went well..I'm sorry to hear about your friend/mentor. I kno that you'll use his memory as motivation for your bright future.