| Thursday, January 26, 2006 |
| Writer's Block |
There's so much I want to write about, so many thoughts and emotions that need to just get out, but I don't have the time or energy to write it. There's so much going on around me between, God/church,work, school, internships, and worryin about where I'm headed once I leave Drexel. I am thinkin about merging my minor into another major but that might take a lil bit more time...
Everything's just a praying matter right now..lol..i know that sounds extra deep but it's nuthin more left to do. Keep me in ya prayers.
P.S. Shout out Ms. Jai and her spot in Full Frontal Fashion Weekend...see ya in NY sis luv ya!
I will be doin a Youth Sunday service, this Sunday, please say a prayer...
Everybody come out on Feb. 4 and support E. Diva and the best fashion show at D.U.!!!{yea i just put a lil pressure on it...lol...lol you'll do great ;-)}
Dr. C.H.,MD {prayerfully} |
posted by DSweet1 @ Thursday, January 26, 2006  |
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| Tuesday, January 17, 2006 |
| You Are... |
I was supposed to steal this a while ago, but here goes anyway:
You are...one of the greatest blessing in my life because in you I see a man of GREATNESS!!! I've always known you were destined to be great and now it has been announced that you have a calling on your life and I dare to say it is so crazy that you won't be able to believe when you fully get there. You've always been the humble, quiet, and nice one; the one that obeyed mom when I was doing my own thing, sometimes I hated you for that but truly I admired your strength to be good and your humbleness {I was too much of a hot head...lol} I love you beyond words and whenever I think of things to thank God for you are one of the first. You know what it is...
Your are...BIG BROTHER RUMBLES!! I've admired you ever since I was in diapers. You were/are still the epitomy of what a MAN is. I love you for your strength, your direction, and your example. Thank you for loving me to full woman-hood! Maybe you made me a lil to strong/rough but I appreciate it anyway because it has protected me from so many things. What it means to be a man will always equate to you and because of this I NEVER settle with my heart. "SAY IT, 'I AM A QUEEN'! SAY IT!!!" LOL To some you're terrifying, to me you are totally captivating with warm arms I can always collapse in. OMEGA PSI PHI never looked so good!!!
You are...MY SISTER! I could never have asked for a better friend, you are truly family. We've been through missing teeth, boyfriends, getting beat by both our mothers, college and everything else and I don't think I would've wanted anyone else to take this trip with me. Thank you for never holding your tongue with me, even when it hurt or got on my nerve I still appreciated it and love you eternally for everything you are to me.
You are...my OTHER SISTER! Drexel would have never been bearable if I didn't have someone as crazy as you beside me. From our many nights tearing up Myers to running things at Lankenau, and {I'm speakin it into existance} establishing a successful Cardio/Gastro Research Center. I don't know anyone with your loyalty and I bless God that when I prayed for a best friend He sent me someone I probably wouldn't have chosen myself {But He knows Best}..lol My prayer partner, my fasting buddy, my sister, my best friend, I love you to life!
You are...the Diva that makes sure I know who I am and my worth! Because of you, I do not mingle with 'the help'...lol...girl I'm still praying for you. My Harlem banga and video vixen, you are beautiful beyond words, without you I don't think I would've gotten over that lil "thing" back in high school ;-). Thank you for always being there and boosting me to be all that I can, your words cut a lil deep but I know it's all love. I love you
You are...my past revisited. I'll never understand the way you love and sometimes I really feel like I don't deserve such intensity. Your loyalty and understanding has gotten me through some of my roughest times. I'm sorry that because of somethings that have happened, I haven't opened myself to you the way you want me to but I thank you for being there any way. Your family is so sweet and I love them all, maybe in time it'll all work itself out. Thank you for still being there.
You are...my twin. We used to be very close but somehow you allowed something crazy to get in your head and put a block between us. I don't even think you know why you did some of the things you did/said, maybe I cut you off short before you were able to explain your moves but I was just tired of everything going on. Soon we'll really be seperated and although I wish you nothing but the best in my heart, my pride hasn't forgiven you enough to really mean it yet. Maybe we'll work it out later but for now I have to just plead a benediction over this friendship, so May the Lord, watch between me and thee...
You are...my West Coast model! Since our first real convo in East, I knew we had a friendship that would last. You're always there to keep me smiling, you are SOOO silly. We're only 4 days apart and that Pisces love is always shown. I can talk to you about almost anything and I'm glad you feel the same. The past two years brought us alot closer, without you I'd have no room...lol. One day soon I'll make it out to Cali to meet Jamie ;-) I'll miss you after June '07, but we'll always be close and of course I have to be there when you and Gramps tie the knot and also when you start your modeling for real, for real I need 10%...lol
You are...compelling. There's a funny connection between us, still haven't fully understood or become totally comfortable with it yet. I admire you in many ways even though I don't "really" know you, sometimes I think our 'dream' could make us close but then there's a funny feeling still, it might be that we don't see eachother or something else...i dunno...thanks for the motivation and I know that you shall reap in due season if you faint not! Drexel will never conquer the future God has predestined for you.
You are...a bizzy body. I always knew we'd be close but you know how I am, I know I might have hurt you by being so stand offish but somethings I just couldn't get down with and you had to learn the hard way. I'm glad that I've always been able to pick you back up when you fell on ya behind. I know you don't understand the walk I'm walking right now, but you really can't cuss in church!!! lol You know I'm always praying for you, tell Ma I said HI and I miss her.
You are...almost everything I dreamed he would be. I don't fully understand everything about our relationship at times we wanna run and never look back and then we find that we don't wanna be anywhere else. Your strength and determination inspires and irritates the hell outta me {we both can't be stubborn...lol}, thank you for your honesty and support. You are one of my best friends and you know more about me than alot of my closest friends but you've protected me, thank you. Although you have caused some tears, I love you beyond logic, me corazon encuentra el descanso en tu.
You are...my BEST FRIEND! Nobody loves you like your mama. I can talk to you about most things for hours and know that a prayer warrior is giving me advice and praying on my behalf. You taught me how to wake up at 6am to pray, how to fast, and to know that 'you cannot hang with the pigeons and sore with the eagles'. Sometimes I don't understand why you do/did the things you do/did but I'm sure it was all apart of your process. The oxtails and rice&peas dinner on Sundays, the ackee & saltfish breakfasts, and the protein dinners/breakfasts before big exams keep me balance and always coming back home. I LOVE YOU MOMMY, you are so stupid...lol
I know this was extensive, I just wanted these people to know how much I value them in my life...you all are part of me,thanks.
Dr. CH, MD {prayerfully}
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| posted by DSweet1 @ Tuesday, January 17, 2006 |
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| Sunday, January 15, 2006 |
| Process |
So it looks like God didn't listen to me when I said I had no more tears...
Have you ever felt like God was challenging you and you don't know whether or not you can win? Well right now I'm at a point where everything under me feels like it's about to slide right from under my feet. I thought I knew God, I thought we had an intimate relationship, but apparently not! Apparently, there is more of Him that He wants me to know.
I've said before that I've been in a place where the only thing I had to believe in was that God was Lord, Christ paid the price for me, and I have the power to make things happen. Right now, I can hear Him say, 'You've told so many people about me. You've said I'm a way maker and a mind regulater, but HOW do you know that???' All these things I've seen and heard from other people and He said, 'It's a time that you KNOW Me and not only talk about me' So now He's given me a situation bigger than myself and I'm totally lost but I refuse to cry, I refuse to buckle because I am determined to KNOW Him, so that my testimony and my preaching has substance, I have a promise inside of me, I have a purpose and I am determined to MAKE IT STICK...so if I gotta fall, if I gotta lose-so be it because I do know that ALL THINGS WORK TOGETHER IN TIME, FOR THEM THAT LOVE THE LORD AND ARE CALLED ACCORDING TO HIS PURPOSE!
I know this is all scattered but I needed to get this out and there was NO way I would vocalize this to anyone right now, but in time...Please remember me when you say your prayers.
Dear Daddy, it's me again...
Dr. CH {prayerfully} |
| posted by DSweet1 @ Sunday, January 15, 2006 |
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| Sunday, January 08, 2006 |
| Tonight, I cried... |
I really enjoyed my weekend, I went to 2 birthday parties and celebrated with friends all weekend! I was a lil upset that I didn't get to go to the NeYo showcase in NY with my NY crew but the parties made up for it. Suede was really nice and Old City has a vibe similar to SoHo so I was in my element...My homeboy came from Brooklyn to chill with me this weekend and we got to "understand" a little more about each other and that was really nice. When it got close to the time for him to leave, I started to feel a little melancholy and it wasn't because he was leavin but because I began to think over what needed to be done this week and how all that would affect the weeks ahead of me and inevitably my future-in other words I started thinkin too much.
We went to a poetry reading at Zanzibar Blue and I was really inspired by it but it also inspired me to think again, when he actually left I went for a walk. As I walked along voided avenues I was left alone to my subconscious and I realized that while it all makes sense in your head, you cannot force someone to swallow their own purpose if they're not ready and I can't ask for a blessing and do nothing to see it through and when I thought of how much I allowed myself to go through because I didn't/refused to realize some of this before all I could do was allow the tears to tell God everything I didn't want to admit out loud, right there in those voided streets...
Sometimes I just wished that I did everything I know I'm supposed to do and the story line I've created for my life in my mind just panned out the way I wrote it...but God knows best so really I can't complain.
Dr. CH {prayerfully} |
| posted by DSweet1 @ Sunday, January 08, 2006 |
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| Saturday, January 07, 2006 |
| More Revelation... |
AND SHE'S STUPID!!!
So ladies and gentlemen, not only is she NOT pretty and from a horrible background, she's also STUPID!!! and paranoid. Doin some recklessness that I would never dream of...
Yea I know I'm rambling but in this friendship, I've always loved our level of honesty but I swear, in this case I wish that theywould just not tell me a damn thing!!! This is showing me a whole new side of them that i really wanna lay out and smack fire out her dumb behind...lemme get off this blog thing, I almost cussed...lol
Sorry bout the angry venting, but ladies and gentlemen even when you don't seek you still might find something and i wish i didn't find this mess :-( and it reminds of something I used to always believe:
Love is when you shed a tear and still want him, it's when he ignores you and you still love him, it's when he loves another girl but you still smile and say I'm happy for you, when all you really do is cry.
Dr. CH {prayerfully} |
| posted by DSweet1 @ Saturday, January 07, 2006 |
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