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Sunday, May 28, 2006

From the Gut...

Ok, I'm gettin ready to get a lil reckless right now...anyone may answer or comment to anything I say if you choose to, but a few questions have plagued me for a while and I think I'm ready for some answers.

So first, why did you give him/her your virginity? Was it a smart choice now that you look back?
I've always imagined that in a logical life, one's first would be someone very special and close to you. Someone that you could tell anything to and trust to the upmost, nothing wavering or lingering in the air. But if you had the thought in the back of your mind that it wasn't going to be forever, long term, or even that he/she would not cheat on you, why then did you allow that sacred space to be exposed to them??

Could it be some mystical force that subdues all inhabititions for those few moments of pleasure? Is it a hold that this person seems to have over you and your very thought process? Or is it mere mortal curiosity and desire that drives the fire to these uncharted and forbidden arenas? Because if it wasn't something you knew would be a tarnishing factor to your "reputation", why then can't you speak about it openly, like say in front of your parents or the such...

Second, what keeps one going back to the past? Why do we think about past characters, years after seperation?

The Bible says, "...they came out from us to make manifest that they were not for us, for had they been for us, surely they would've continued with us." So are we in our back and forth-ness, being ridiculous; the Bible tells us to let them go and yet there is some dynamic that works against this. Is it us? or is it something out of mortal control that keeps us wondering where they are, who they're with, and whether or not they're thinking about us too?

I'll be back later...
C.H., MD {prayerfully}

posted by DSweet1 @ Sunday, May 28, 2006

3 Comments:

At 5:20 PM, Tranquility826 said…

mmm..u tryna put people out on front street for real..lol..lol..i can't leave "two cents" on here..it'll be too much..
At 8:58 PM, Anonymous said…

wow...just stopping through...I'm 27 and lookin back on my 1st I will say it was a mistake and that I went along with it because I felt like, after so many years together he some how "deserved" it...no i would say i would do it all over again differently and waited a lil while longer

interesting topics on this one..keep up the good work
At 2:09 AM, Anonymous said…

I was pretty young when i decided to give my virginity to my bf of 5 months at the time...it was a pretty weird situation and although i knew it was a sacred thing, i also had the thought in my head that he wouldn't be around long and he wasn't and now i couldn't begin to tell you where i thought he was

this is a real thinking blog, will check back later