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Monday, April 03, 2006

A Place Where Only He and God Dwell...

Over the past few months a few people asked me why I was still single and I couldn't really get mad because they weren't the ignorant, wanna-get-in-my-pants fools that normally front me they were genuienly sincere. I gave some the brush off answer: 'I don't want one' and some I was actually honest with-'Right now is not a good time for me to be wrapped up in a relationship'.
After watching Madea's Family Reunion and talking with my girl Jai I have a better understanding of where I want my mind right now. At first it was a matter of not being able to emotionally let go of a past 'relationship', then it became I need to see what would be the right moves to make that would not alter my beliefs and upset my God, then all of a sudden it just became second nature to just ignore any kind of advances. I'm that if they didn't already know me guys wouldn't come at me because I seem 'mean', I personally think they need to man up or maybe their intuition was right and it was best they didn't approach me...anyway. The messages in the movie were really strong and hit home on several different levels. But of course the wedding scene really got to me, when Boris's character read his vows I damn near cried and I definitely don't do that but it helped me get it all together...
I don't want just another relationship that might just last a few months or a year, that's like practicing divorce. I'm just going to wait my turn until a FRIEND comes, who I can trust, introduce to my dad{eventually...lol}, and develop the deepest soul tie with. Of course this kinda thing won't happen over night or right away and I guess that's best because med school and residency is NO game, so whenever God's ready, I'm ready; so I guess in the end He's the reason I'm single and who am I to rush Him? I've tried that already and it didn't work, anyway...off to class for my final stretch of classes before June '07.

Dr. CH, MD {prayerfully}

posted by DSweet1 @ Monday, April 03, 2006

1 Comments:

At 7:13 PM, poyesha said…

yeah Medea's movies be making me scared to get married yo..