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Wednesday, August 30, 2006

Argh!!!!

I just wanna scream...I wanna cuss...I wanna run away...I wanna beat the hell outta somebody
My family gets on my nerves and as much sense as it would make financially to go back to NY after graduation, I can't see it! That's as much as I can say about that right now, please just pray for these damn Jamaicans.
My heart's confused, I pride myself of intuition and decernment but I'm not sure if I'm reading the signs right or defining them all wrong. I hate this feeling and it's pissin me off and yet I don't have the fight in me right now to try to figure things out.
What the hell will I do after June '07? I realized that I was becoming overwhelmed when I began to question why I even wanted to become a doctor!!! College was nothing as I had seen it back in high school and I don't know if that's a good thing or bad thing yet. How long will it take me to get out of just undergrad debt??? Which then leads to when would I even consider getting married, having children, and bringing more people into my debt.

I love life but I'm frustrated as hell right now and I wish I didn't know better so that I could just wild out and get all this out of me, but I guess I'm gonna be in someone's pilates class and workin this thing out...pray that someone doesn't say the wrong thing to me!

Dear Lord, it's me again

posted by DSweet1 @ Wednesday, August 30, 2006

1 Comments:

At 8:45 AM, poyesha said…

same. exact. situation. and lets not even get into my family....